sian dia...

sian dia...
da lame saye tinggalkan dia...
dulu saye kate akan selalu jenguk die..
cerita dgn die....
share segalanya dgn die....
tapi saye mungkir...

tapi saye harap die faham..

sbb saye bukan sengaje..
dulu saye dlm keadaan separe oku dan telantar kat umah..
tipa2 ari dok online dgn die tanpe hala tuju..
dan bile saye da sembuh,
saye kembali ke negeri memeras keringat,
dan memulakan hidop baru kat sane dgn keje yg baru..
saye agak cbok..
dan opis baru juge buat saye tak pat jengok dia..
skang da bole sbb saye tlh menyuroh technician yg ganteng itu btolkan blik pc saye.eheh!

skang saye kembali..
saye harap saye dpt jengok dia tiap2 hari
dan bagi die mkn dgn benda2 yg baik..
sbb dgn kehadiran die saye hidop saye terase lebih terisi..;)

tata.

diary + blogs..

blogs..wat r they all about..?adekah blog tu sejenis makanan spt apam@kain songket (apekah!!!)..dulu aku pon agk slow gak sbb tak tau blog tu ape,tp skang ni ok la...wlupon tak bape celik it,tp hasil dpd usahe yg beterosan aku maju gak r beberape tapak ke depan...


alhamdulillah...


how does it start?


mmm...


14years old...


waaaahhh!!br form two da stat ade diary,mgkin sbb mase ni idea utk craps+berangan+cite2 membina mase depan sgt tggi,wat aku suke jot ape yg jadi dlm life aku mase tu..siap ade sticker tampal2 tuhh...tak tahann...mgkin gak sbb dlm ati da stat brangan n admiring seniors yg ensem2 + takde tmpat nk luahkan cos malu so organizer yg aku dpt ntah dr sape tu la yg jdk mangse coretan hati mase tuh..huhu!!


15years old...


zaman ni bole diklasifikasikan sbg zaman kegemilangan wat aku prasan n tanak lepaskan segale saat2 bermakne (yg bile dikenang2 blik skang nih rase sgt malu ok!!kecik2 da brangan!!) yg jdk dlm life aku..nk kate jdk best student tu tade la,pmr kantoi gak satu paper..tp mase nih skill menulis da meningkat wat aku rase kagom ngan ayt2 yg aku tulis hasil drpd asahan craps sejak setaun sblomnye.tp mase ni coretan tu lebe pade girl's stories n all d'skandals happened.mase ni aku naive lagi,tak geti nk tulis cite2 cinte cm luahan rase yg tak le nk dicritekan kat org lain sbb aku ni pemalu orgnye...err...mcm tak btol je...

16years old...


hoho!!cik diary siap balot ngan aluminium foil tuhhh...ntah ape jadah aku balot ngan mendealah tu aku pon tak sure,n then kat depan siap ade gamba devil love (motif?kurang pasti..)tp skang aku da tau nape sbb mase tu la aku stat crapping bout loves n crushed....its just a simple note book tp cite dlm tu sume leh wat aku tegelak sowg2 skang..ngee...

17years old...


ohhhh!!ni la time kemuncak nye dimane cik diary klu dibandingkan ngan taun2 seblomnye, bole dikatekan sbg plg cun mase tuh,wrapped with recycle paper+"baby's with big ears pic" kat depan sbg simbol "kaulah telinge yg terseksa sbb kene dgr segale luahan ati aku" (haha!!)...aku ingt lagi mase tu sgt adore queen padme naberrie amidala (even aku tak tgk pon muvie merepek tuh) n tlh menjadikan amidala as my nick n put her pic on my first page..+ my painting kat dpn:) d'most interesting part is aku siap bg cik diary name which last until now...COYOTITO:)

18years old...

aktiviti menulis da jdik slow sbb da stat jdk studen metrik,tp yg bestnye at d'end of th year aku manage tok jadikan coyotito menarik ngan segale ketas n tiket ntah pape yg aku tmpal dlm tu as an effort to record wat had happened thru out d'year eg:ring2 kad,tiket ketapi,kad2 ddcation,hatta ke resit kompaun hasil lompat pagar sbb nk blik kg pon ade...cesssss!!

19years old n on......

emmm...ni la dia zaman2 kejatohan COYOTITO di mane COYOTITO tdk lagi menjadi tempat utame mencoret isi hati sbb mase nih aku tgh leka ngan kehidopan duniawi+culture shock wat aku tak sempat nk jott pape yg menarik yg jdk spanjang wak2 tu.pressure study pon one of d'factor jgak,n stat dr ctu aktiviti meluah pade COYOTITO jadik smakin kurang n pudar n ilang trus...tiade lagi COYOTITO yg cantik...ape saje yg ade pan mate hatta ke masking tape pon aku leh tulis sgl isi hati yg mengokot..piki2 blik gase rugi plak, sbb umo2 ni la aku tgh m'getik..at least leh gak jadik peringatan utk diri sendiri supaye tak jadik bengap n menggetik mcm dulu.....n mgkin gak leh jdk pengajaran utk ank2 aku sok..."haa...ni la dia zmn2 kegelapan mommy di satu ketika dulu..."..TAK PER LU OKKKK...WAT MALU AKU JEK NNT...
so here i am..
starting back my COYOTITO with different hopes n dreams..with a vision to write my journey thru this challenging life which full with ups n downs....cos i believe in this..."LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO FILL WITH REGRETS:)"....our life is a drama n maybe COYOTITO can act as a medium who ever wants to know bout me...(my future kids maybe..errr....sempat ke kawen aku nihh..)

Amiin..

here i am..

"Here I Am"

I'll protect you, don't be scared

No matter what, I will be there

I'll be gentle, I'll be light

These are the words you whispered in the night

Here I am

Here I am

Now I'm standing in the cold

Everything is said and done

Atomic winter in my soul

The only remedy I know

Is I gotta let you go

Here I am

Here I am

But where were you when I was scared

A broken promise left me here

A post-it note is what I've got

It says: "I'm sorry, but I know you're not"

SoHere I am yeah

Here I am

Here I am

Here I am

There will come a day when all of this is in my past

And there will come a day when you're out of my head at last

I'm trying not to fall

Damn it's such a long way down

But here I am